Pathetic, I know.

its about 3 am here, and everyone except me, is having his/her sixth or seventh dream by now.
and i spent over 4 hours on the net, reading stuffs and chatting.
then i decided to go check whats on TV?
ok, the regule tour, news, some light thigns, then the movie channel, where i saw this old movie, Boys and Girls, and i watched it, for the fourht of fifth time maybe.
its about this calm cute guy, in uni, single and not looking, and one of his friends, this very good looking girl, who doesnt mind sleeping with anyone she meets in any party right after they leave, anyways, i forgot their names by now ( damn it i just finihsed watching, terrible memory!), but i iwll refer to them by "he" and "she", so he and she were good friends, they hang out together, she tells im about her dates and stuff, and he knew al about her, how she is afraid of commetments, how she runs away when is gets serious, but he and she were just friends, and everything was going ok, till, one night she was sad and crying, and as usual he was there for her, then out of the blue there was this moment and he...kissed her, and she kissed him back, and they spent the night in her place.
when he woke up next morning, she was dressing up... "where are you going?" "i gotta go i am have classes" " but you never go to classes" "ahh, umm, thats why i must go now, stay as much as you want, you know where everything is " and she left.
he realised what happened, and se startd to feel guilt cause she knows that he doesnt take these things lightly, and that he will expect their relation to change, while she only wanted to have fun, no commetments, but she didnt want to hurt him, so next day the meet, they walk together for a while and she says " maybe we must talk " "hooff yes please we must talk" "we eed to talk about what happened last night" " yes i agree totaly" "it was a huge mistake" he was shocked, but didnt want to humilate himself so he said " yes exactly, a huge mistake" "we dont want thigns to change between us" "no no we dont want that" and as you expect, he remembered that he got to study, and left her there, and in the comin gweeks he kept avoiding meeting her, then she graduates, and getting ready to leave to Italy for Summer vacation, she looks for him and finds him " Rayan Walker where the hell have you been? (yay i remembered his name) "
" studying" "do you want to go do something?" "no i am busy, i gotta go study again" "but..but..i am leaving to Italy in few days, arent you gonna make me a good bye party?" "ahh, i gotta go" a paaauuseeee, he starts walking away, she says " whats wrong? whats going on?"
"wana talk? tell me why was it a mistake? why is it a mistake? me and you? ha? wana knwo whats going on? that night was the best thing that happened to me, i was happy without having to plan for it so much, everything seemed to be so right, like its a huge perfect plan that i got nothing to do with it, and nothing will ever hurt me as much as your reaction to that same experience" "i am sorry, if i could take it all away i would, if i knew it would ruin our friendship i would have never done it" "well, me too....me too" and he walks away.....
in real life, story ends here, he stays with a broken heart, she go find dark handsome guys in italy.
in holywood, its another thing:
in her way to the airport she remembers his words "why is it a mistake you and me? ..." and gets off the airport car, runs fast to catch him before he leaves to his house in LA, she buys a ticket in the same plane he is on, and runs in the plane looking for him and shouts " Rayan i love you, i love you, you were right, i was afraid of letting you in my heart, i want to spend my life with you, i want to lablabalabla".
Bulshit! it never happens in real life!! hahaha, if it does, it wouldnt make sence to make a movie about it, and people wouldnt buy a ticket to go watch that movie, and movie cannel wouldnt go buy it and put it on, so pathetic single people who cant find anything to do watch it at 3 am.
those peopel play with our feelings and brains to get some money! they must be sued!
ok this was a PS, pointless story, but as i told you, ia m alone, and its 3 am, and usually people call a friend to talk, but i have the chance to talk to few thousands, so i used it and i used you good people to take the mixture of strange feelings out of my heart.
thank you.
and sorry:)
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